Lost in Thoughts

This year will be my first year celebrating Christmas single after what seems like an eternity. It struck me harder than I imagine and I honestly didn't look forward to it at all. I didn't want any Christmas presents or anything at all, all I want for Christmas is him. I couldn't stop thinking about him as the day approached. Not being able to spend Christmas with him is bad enough, but I had to spend Christmas myself and heartbroken.

My relatives had always organized a Christmas barbecue on Christmas eve every year, and this year my mum told me and my sister to invite our friends to attend, which meant that I couldn't even spend time with my sister! My parents would be having their friends over too so that really meant that I would really spend Christmas alone! I didn't invite any friends because I didn't think that anyone would come, I thought that everyone would be out celebrating.

A few hours before the party, I was asking a friend for some stuff and he mentioned that he was not going to celebrate Christmas too. So I jokingly invited him, not expecting him to come at all, but shockingly he was ok with it and asked me to call up more friends to come. So I did, but still not trying to get my hopes up, I didn't think much of it. So I called up a few of my friends and oddly one by one of them are free! I must admit that I didn't expect them to come, or would ditch at the last minute, but they came! I ended up gathering 6 people at the last minute! It made me realized that, I'm not alone! There's so many people out there who has the same, or worse, problems, as me and that all I had to do, is to be the one to do something about it to turn the night around!

I ended up having an awesome night with them and also the first Christmas where I went to a crowded area on a holiday!

Although he was on my mind the entire time, and I anticipated for his text or call the whole time, which didn't happen, I still enjoyed the night. It's better than sitting alone and thinking about what I'm going to do with myself.

Moral of the story is, if you don't feel happy about something, then do something about it!

Whenever I'm down, I listen to The Script's Nothing. Somehow I feel that this song reflects what I'm going through and how I feel.

Why do we only appreciate the ones who makes no effort to be with us, yet, take the people who is dying to be with you for granted?

A lot has happened since the last post, I have to admit, I let myself go by not paying attention in class and slipping away in depression. I cried everyday and whenever people talk about this issue to me. It was at one point when I would rather sleep than do my assignments (that was due the next day) because dreams are better than reality. My friends had noticed and tried to cheer me up, but I can't help it.

Then one day I was so depressed that I asked the elders to give me a blessing, and they did. And on that  night, I had a dream. A dream so shocking and wonderful that I woke up smiling. It was so clear, I could even feel the touch on my skin! It made my day! And ever since that day, I could not stop smiling. No, the dream has nothing to do with my missionary. Although the dream was a great dream, I did wish that it would come true, but I know the chances of that happening is close to impossible. But there was still that hope. Even though it was only just a dream, it left a huge impact on me. I stopped crying after that and finally moved on. All my friends are shocked when I said I've moved on, but they cheered for me because they knew that I was happier. Even though they hoped that things will go well for me and my mish in the future, I wasn't going to waste my life away for someone who hurt me so bad. I don't want to be an option or a back-up. I don't want to be with someone who only feels guilt for me. I don't want to always be the little woman who obediently waits for her man and lets him win all the time. It was time to move on. I don't want to be that girl anymore. If you want something, you have to earn it, so you will appreciate it more.

Peace~

Now, I know a lot of people have talked about this, but I want to have my say in it too. These are just my own opinions! It's nothing personal, it's just plain old common sense.

McDonald's have these adorable little minion toys out for grabs whenever you purchase a Happy Meal. You see, McDonald's have always had Happy Meals with cute toys since FOREVER (Or at least as long as I can remember). Kids love new toys, this I understand, I wouldn't be shock to see kids lining up just to get the Happy Meal toys. As a 'young adult', even if I wanted a Happy Meal toy, I bet my friends and family will tease me or make harmless fun of me. But now I see ADULTS lining up just to get the toys? Oh not only 1, but I heard a man bought up to 30 Happy Meals at one go! (the most I heard is 30, don't know if it's true or not though)

ARE YOU KIDDING ME?!?! This is ridiculous  What are you going to do with 30 minions?!! Sell them off on Ebay for 2 billion+? (yes, I really heard someone saying this) I know they are cute and all, but Y U SO GREEDY?? It's just a toy! What's going to happen when the trend is over? If you really paid a ton of money on a toy that only cost less than RM10 (which includes the Happy Meal! Don't forget the Happy Meal!), just because everyone has it! What is going to happen afterwards? Unless you are a toy collector then I guess you are okay.

The thing is, what I really don't understand is why people have to be obsessed to the point of breaking down McDonald's roller shutters! It's crazy! And the people who has no intention of buying the minion toys and who just wants to eat, had to line up for hours just to order! I also heard that after people bought the minions, they would throw all the food out... That's just wasting food! But I know that some people are aware of this issue and have decided to donated the food to orphanages, which is good of course, but that just means that you bought the Happy Meals just for the toys! DUDE! You're a grown ass man!!!

Many people have commented and telling McDonald's to allow only a limited amount of Happy Meals per person. My sister suggested that they should have an age restriction and only sell to the kids, I agree, I totally agree with this because the Happy Meals are target to children, some restaurants wouldn't let you order a meal that are only for kids, so why shouldn't McDonald's? Like, maybe a child must be present to buy a Happy Meal. This way, you can control the amount of Happy Meals a person can buy so that they didn't buy it for the wrong reasons! Now, McDonald employees are being blamed and even yelled just because they ran out of stock! It's not their fault that people are crazy about the little Minion toys! They're just doing their job!

I understand that the minions are adorable, they really are! But it's not healthy being obsess to the point of harming anyone or anything just to get a little toy!

Think of it this way, would you feel embarrassed if you look back to this occasion a few months from now, after the trend is over?

~Love~
C Leah

I'm not a very religious person, but I am very superstitious... The other day I was at home preparing for class, which was at 2.30 p.m., but I had nothing to do, so I prepared early. It was 12.30 p.m. I think, and I didn't know if I should leave for class or not, usually I leave at 1.15 p.m. because it is hard to find a parking spot at my college if I went too early or too late. But something in my mind kept telling me to go right now, so I debated a while, but decided to listen to it.

It has been officially 3 weeks and 4 days since he left for his mission (Yes, I have been keeping count) and the days went by a wee bit slower than I thought it would be.

He went to the MTC (Mission training center, I think) in Philippines for 12 days, then finally out and ready to serve in wherever he's assign to. From the emails, I asked him how he was doing and he said it was fun but days felt like years in the MTC because of the long hours. But now he's out and serving in Johor, with his trainer, Elder Meister, an Australian from Sydney, whom I have the privileged to meet in Penang before he left for Johor!

Awesome Elder Meister!

I hope he'd train Tian Muh to become an awesome missionary and also get Tian Muh to become a more punctual and eligible boyfriend!

On every Monday, I would get to email Tian Muh for an hour (Yes. ONE HOUR). Why can't we text or call or video chat or skype? Because its against their rules. Strict, I KNOW! I don't make the rules. But it's to let them concentrate and focus on their mission work instead of thinking and missing their lonely girlfriend back at home. It's a bit like the Military I guess.

Anyways, I send Tian Muh emails everyday and he only gets to read 'em on Mondays. For his part, I asked him to write everything in a journal everyday so that I get to read 'em. (overly attached much? haha)

Anyways, he told me that he has made lots of friends in the MTC, and I don't know why, but I replied him with "Great! More friends to invite to our wedding!" Seriously! It just came out on top of my head and I don't know why! So I made a meme!

I posted it on 9gag too, haha

He just laughed because he knows that its the way I am. I'm not even going to try to deny that I'm overly attached!

He sent me pictures when he arrived at Changi Airport with the Mission President and a fellow sister missionary who also came our from the MTC.

Him with President Meines and Sister Simon

Many people don't see the difference but his face got a bit fatter. They say people will try to feed the missionaries as much as they can, so he'll definately get fatter when he comes back! I told him to come back with a 6 pack but he said he'll come back with 1. Hahaha!

Here's a picture of him and some of the missionaries who have served in Penang!

So I've written in my past post that my boyfriend is a Mormon and is going to serve his mission soon! Never have I thought that this day would really come! I've always thought that 'there's still plenty of time left!', but geez... time sure flies...

It's so weird, I think God really is watching us from above because he was suppose to report to the MTC on June 7th, which is Friday, but had to leave a day earlier to have an interview. I have class at 2.30pm on Wednesday and a full day on Thursday, so if he leaves a day earlier, it'd be on Thursday, which means that I had to skip class to see him off! But it so happens that his flight was on Wednesday 12.45pm, which means I can see him off AND not skip class at all! Win-win! I guess God really do love me a lot to let this coincident happen! I'm one lucky girl! Plus, he told me that it's a good thing I have class on that day after seeing him off because it'll keep my mind off him, it's better than to have a whole day of free time to think of him and cry even more. I guess I'm grateful for that too!

I couldn't smile properly because I was already crying!

If you have a boyfriend who's a Mormon but you're not, and he's leaving for his mission soon, then this post is perfect for you. Or, if your boyfriend is going away and you might have to have a long distance relationship, then I guess this post suits you too.


Well, If your boyfriend is as Mormon as mine, then he's probably excited to leave for his mission. In my case, he's leaving in 10 days. Devastated as I am, there's nothing I can do but to support him and wait for him for TWO WHOLE YEARS!!! Yup, 2 years of no texting, no phone calls, Skyping, meeting, and any psychical contact! If I'm not mistaken, we can either write letters or email each other once a week. It's relationship hell!!!


For all the girls who is dating a Mormon guy who is already back from his mission, then lucky you! For the rest of us who'll have to suffer the long wait, good luck!


Research have found that 99.9% of girls do NOT wait for their boyfriend when they serve on their mission... Well, it's NOT impossible, you might be that 0.01% right?