Lost in Thoughts

After 3 years of assignment, group works and college life, I'm happy to say that, finally, I've graduated. Yeesh!

Graduation dinner was held at Sunway Convention Center in KL, which is inconvenient for us Penangites as we have to purposely travel there for that one dinner. Not to mention that I'm working in Singapore.

On that very day, we all gathered at the hall as our parents waited in the convention center in their seats. Most of us, working at Singapore, met our classmates for the first time after the last day of class. Which, in my case, was a bit awkward as our class has had some minor and childish disagreements and misunderstandings which split us into 2 groups. But, all in all, we greeted each other normally, putting the past behind us. Pffftttt....We're grown ups now, right? 

Class of TOAP ID1105

One by one of us went up stage, took our fake diploma, and had our photo taken with Dr. Eric Leong, the Principal of The One Academy Penang, and also the Head of ID department in The One Academy.

Snapped from my sis: Le Dr. Eric Leong, me and TOAP Managing Director, Mr. Leong Hoy Yoke

Seeing all my friends, especially those in other majors, is quite refreshing. It made me miss the days where I get to see them all the time. But we don't have to keep it like that right? We can still contact each other even when we're not in Penang. Not to mention, most of TOAP students have come to Singapore to work, so, Everything is Awesome~ (Note: imagine the Legos singing it)



All in all, the trouble is worth the trip~ I got to spend some quality time with ma dearest family on the whole 4-5 hour drive to KL.

I'm grateful that I didn't fail in any of my subject and prolonging my graduation. I'm grateful for all the friends I made during these years of college life. I'm grateful for the awesome peeps that are graduating with me.

What can I say?


Happy Graduation! :)

Ever since graduating from college and moving to Singapore, I've come out of my sheltered little bubble into this whole new world full of responsibility and reality. Yeah, sure, it's fun that I have the freedom to do what I want, but is it, really?

The day has finally arrived where my college life is over. I never thought that this day would come, but it has. Now I'm in Singapore working on my internship. What's great about it is that I'm not alone, a few of my friends are with me, which is really lucky of me. 

I wish I could not give a shit about him. Whenever he text or contacts me, I would get pissed off whenever that snake comes into topic. Now, I don't care that he's already in a relationship with her, but what pisses me off is that he has the nerve to do it during his Mormon mission and right after telling me that he can't have a relationship and he wants to 'focus' on serving God.

I don't know why I still get mad, but I do. It's not like I want a relationship with him, hell no! A man who can't be faithful for less than 4 months? Who would want that? What pisses me off is that he's out there telling people of all the good things he did, but no one knows all the actual bullshit that he does!

You said you like her because she believed that what you taught is true and easily understands about the gospel. Well, fuck you. Does it mean that a person has to change their belief to be with you? It meant that she doesn't have her own freaking thinking? Can't a girl have her own opinions? That as long as she follows what you say, you will choose her? Then you're not worth it.

This year will be my first year celebrating Christmas single after what seems like an eternity. It struck me harder than I imagine and I honestly didn't look forward to it at all. I didn't want any Christmas presents or anything at all, all I want for Christmas is him. I couldn't stop thinking about him as the day approached. Not being able to spend Christmas with him is bad enough, but I had to spend Christmas myself and heartbroken.

My relatives had always organized a Christmas barbecue on Christmas eve every year, and this year my mum told me and my sister to invite our friends to attend, which meant that I couldn't even spend time with my sister! My parents would be having their friends over too so that really meant that I would really spend Christmas alone! I didn't invite any friends because I didn't think that anyone would come, I thought that everyone would be out celebrating.

A few hours before the party, I was asking a friend for some stuff and he mentioned that he was not going to celebrate Christmas too. So I jokingly invited him, not expecting him to come at all, but shockingly he was ok with it and asked me to call up more friends to come. So I did, but still not trying to get my hopes up, I didn't think much of it. So I called up a few of my friends and oddly one by one of them are free! I must admit that I didn't expect them to come, or would ditch at the last minute, but they came! I ended up gathering 6 people at the last minute! It made me realized that, I'm not alone! There's so many people out there who has the same, or worse, problems, as me and that all I had to do, is to be the one to do something about it to turn the night around!

I ended up having an awesome night with them and also the first Christmas where I went to a crowded area on a holiday!

Although he was on my mind the entire time, and I anticipated for his text or call the whole time, which didn't happen, I still enjoyed the night. It's better than sitting alone and thinking about what I'm going to do with myself.

Moral of the story is, if you don't feel happy about something, then do something about it!

Whenever I'm down, I listen to The Script's Nothing. Somehow I feel that this song reflects what I'm going through and how I feel.

Why do we only appreciate the ones who makes no effort to be with us, yet, take the people who is dying to be with you for granted?